i don't understand..

Apparently, emotional pain only lasts for twelve minutes anything after that, it's self inflicted.

Bullshit.

i..

I CANT HANDLE IT, i act badly. and im an embarrassment.

..

i love you more than life.

We only get 86,400 seconds in a day, to turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em, while we still got the chance to say.

what..

Doesn't kill me, Only makes me stronger.

i need you to hurry up now, because i can't wait much longer.

I can't sleep, no goodnight tonight, i know he's fallen asleep on me, but i feel funny.
Oh well. :)

where'd it go?

I was thinking, where did the past 6 years of my life go?
It feels like yesterday that i was in year 7 and now im entering year 12.
it's scary, growing up..

ah,

i had a pretty eventful day :\

- got flashed by a random guy.
- spent ages at the cops station.
- almost choked to death at maccas.
- got a shit load of costumes to hem.

great day, hey.

why?

Trust.
So simply said. But, so hard to engage.
Without trust, I'm sorry, But i'll fall apart..

I had a constructive day of doing nothing.
Watched 3 movies, saw my amazing boyfriend, and my girls.
<3




'Come fly with me, baby?'

i'm addicted baby.

'Who are you to tell me how to live my life? Cause i won't give this up.
These are my shoes, My view, My cue to say i do give a fuck.
Pretty soon im'a be bloomin' it'll be alright, everydays another chance to ignite'

So bliss n eso.
You are amazing.
You are just like eminem, to me anyway.
Your lyrics are so true and amazing, and i can relate.
Any song, anytime, any place.

Stop telling me what to do, how to live my fucking life. Because, honestly i DON'T give a fuck. Give up, just like you always do.
Shit day. Shit holidays.


end rant.


'you give the strength to me, a strength i never had you see, i was a mess, that was untill i found you.'

you're like a melody.

The word sorry, it's so over-rated and over-used.
If you think about it, when you say 'sorry' how many times do you actually mean it?
I'm most definately a sorry person, always the first to apologise.
It's just who i am, i have to stop.

Rude people, i hate you.
Life is too short to be rude to that person behind the counter.
Yes, i'm talking to you lady who i served the other day who snatched her change and stormed off with her kids. I gave you the time of day, is it really that hard to return the favour?

It's holidays now, thank god. School was really starting to get to me.
But, on the downside.. i am in year 12 now..
I wanted to grow up so much when i was a kid, now i am here.. this sucks.
I am excited to leave school, but at the same time i am afraid.

'i'm addicted to this universal feeling called life'

falling.. falling.

long time no blog. hey.

everything seems to be going ok.
i was thinking alot today, about everything.
i like thinking, it's just how i work. to think about absolutely everything and anything.

How easy would it to have a photographic mind! exam's would be amazing.
just shut your eyes, and all the answers are infront of you. That would be great.
Because, i cannot study. I always seem to be doing something else. Life is way to short to be behind a text book.

Lots and lots of stuff have gone down recently, but this is all apart of life and a learning curve. I have to stop stressing about things that are out of my control.
Life is good.

He is amazing, i love him with my whole entire heart. Without him, i would honestly be nothing. Forever is most definately an understatement.
26/3. <3

Exam's are soon, and i am trying to prepare as much as possible. But, im trying. Nothing more i can do, if i fail, bad luck.

Caitlins 18th. Lady gaga is my inspiration. I found this fitting as it is 'tight bright and over the top'

Everything is lovely.

what have i done?

Please tell me..

,

'if you dont stand for something, you'll fall for anything'


<3

i would replay last night a million times over.

i had the greatest night at the deb last night.
I love every single one of my friends and my amazing boy to make my night the best it could be.




i love yu <3

eh.

I hope karma comes back and kicks you on the arse, i hate people who steal.
Get a life.

photos.

i wish i was photogenic ...
i really envy all people that are.

british india.

you are my inspiration, along with nsn.
their lyrics are so true and real <3



<3

baby, we can be so amazing.

Some people are just complete arseholes.
Why can't people just treat others how they would like to be treated.
I guess that is too much to ask for these days.
People need to grow up. Yeah, your only young once but how about go through life with some maturity?
I guess again, it's too much to ask for.

But the world needs arseholes.
Because then how would we find the good people that we want to stay in our lives?

best day.

Today, I was giving a class presentation, when I suddenly sneezed so hard I wet myself. FML .



ahahaha.
i think this www.fml.com. post made my day.
that is all.

she's bulletproof..

'i want to be your favourite hello, and your hardest goodbye'
i hope it's like that foreverr.

i had an okay day today.
i guess..
i'm so over getting my hopes up for something and it doesn't happen. thats just life i guess.
and i guess thats how pathetic you actually are. you've just shown me.
i would abuse you, but to be honest, your not even worth that time or my breath.

i love you kiz.
your amazing.
x

wow.

Life wouldnt be life,

without people who are there to create hate,
make things harder and try to make us break,
but what makes us is how we retaliate,
and cope with the struggles that just complicate

But lifes not bad

Sure there are times when we all are sad, times when we are a little mad, even with the people who try and make things bad but im glad.
Because i have you
From the beginning i always knew, that i had fallen for you.

<3

forrest gump.

I am currently watching forrest gump for the first time ever.

So i like hate it when i try and tell my mum what i think is a funny story and she thinks its not funny and turns it around to be like a massive lecture. She wonders why i don't tell her anything.

So last night was great.
I did have an amazing night with him.
I hope this is forever, you have no idea.

Kiz's formal is on friday and then my deb the next saturday.
I am totally excited for the next two weekends.
They should be amazing, i literally cannot wait.

Life is pretty good at the moment.
I love you.

great.

so much for my early night..
i just i can't sleep cause im thinking about you.

thinking.

I am an overthinker.
I am pretty sure that i over think everything humanly possible.
Is it a good or a bad thing?
I really don't know.

I was just thinking about today, wait overthinking about today.
And i think i had a pretty shitty day.
Fights are silly, pointless and annoying.
I guess he just wants to make me feel like shit, thats just him i guess.
I guess what everyone says is true,
'You can't have a bestfriend of the opposite sex without falling for them'
I really wish it wasn't true, but i guess it is. I'm sorry that i couldn't give you what you wanted from me.

But the more positive aspects of my day is that i had a cheese and spinach roll and have decided on my deb hair, a taylor swift updo and its only 18 days away.

So yes.
it'll be fun.

I also love my boyfriend, alot.
He is the most amazing guy.
Really, he is.
i love him so much.

x

come baaack.

eiseddfodd :(

fly away x

Yesterday was a very hard day for everyone and in the year 11 year group. But everyone banded together for a send off of a beautiful girl. She was loved by all and this was extremely evident. The poems, the stories and the pictures really showed everyone how much she meant to her family and friends. It is such a shame we had to say goodbye to a young girl way before her time, she was truly beautiful inside out. Her closest friends are the strongest people i know. I was thinking, life is too short to be worried over pointless things and silly fighting because we dont know how long we have left. :\
Life is a great thing, and i hope everyone is happy and well.

'Creative, quirky, Loving and Honest'
rest in peace ' georgous '
you meant the world to alot of people.
fly away beautiful, your free x

"She's amazing. She's beautiful. She's great at sports."

Those are the only words I hear from my parents... about my sister.

Can you guys notice me... just once?

- six billion secrets.

hhm

fuck you shinsplints x

rest in peace

Georgia Claire Palframan. 10th july 1993 - 23rd july 2010.
‎"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal."
you'll never, ever be forgotten. You were a friend to all, and everyone misses you dearly. Your rest in peace page brings me to tears every time i read it, it's hard to imagine that we will never see you around again. If we can think of any positive from this let it be that life is to be cherished and how short it really is.
You'll always be in our hearts, never forgotten :(
The support everyone has in yr 11 for each other at this time is amazing, yr 11 i love you.
your amazing Georgia.
xxxxx

...

Thin, Thin, Thin, Thin, Thin,
Be thin, Very thin
Now stay Thin
Be Thinner, Thinner
Always thinner
Your not good enough
Thin, Thin, Thin,
you have to be thin.



dancing's motto i reckon ..

listen up.

you want to be treated right?
treat yourself with some respect then.

stop saying sorry.
cant you tell people are sick of it.

stop being so stupid.

But the thing is lots of hit happens, the people you thought would never change, and sometimes the strongest things in life fall apart, but at the end of the day the earth keeps spinning and you have to spin with it, no one will stop to pick you up so just get over it.


So stand up and be strong.

the best things in life;

. dancing.
. rediscovering old things that yuu loved years ago.
. him and how he makes me feel.
. just being out in the rain.
. rainy days.
. chats with your bestfriend that last hours on end.
. having no homework stress or worries.
. positive people.
. making wishes on 11.11.
. cute cupcakes from melbourne.
. Melbourne in general, and essendon fc.
. hearing rain just as yuu are about to go to sleep.
. watching the sunset.
. music that yuu play over and over again and never get sick of.
. having a good dayy.


thats it pretty much.



i miss you like crazy.

you know whatt.

your beautiful. :)

i love life. :)

i just realised all my posts are depressing as !
what the hell aliesha.
anyways i am having the greeeaaatest day today!

3 months < 3

i wish for pleasant dreams.

realisation night.

and then i thought..

im just going for it, I’ve got nothing left to lose.


your not going to intimidate me anymore.
your worse than i'll ever be.


the end.

i hate you.

you make me feel uncomfortable.

never question how i act or feel about myself.

why?

am i always the first to say sorry?

i. am. sick.

and it totally sucks.
i think i'm getting glandular fever again, that succcks.
i dont particularly want to be bedridden for two weeks again. :(

i had my first deb practice today, and it was amazing.
and i got my dress yesterday, even more amazing.

i also had an amazing weekend. but one little part was a bit ruined.
i just hate people who ruin things, oh well. i still had the best time.

word of the day: amazing.
actually, i use that word a fair bit, because i believe everyone should be told that they are amazing.

its cool, im talking to a friend who i haven't talked to in yeaaars.
funny how things change, hey.

so i was pondering.

today in maths.

because lets face it, i hate maths. i hate it's mere existance.
i don't even know why i am doing this subject. i am setting myself up for an epic failure.

i was thinking, will i be successful?
maybe oneday i will be sorting papers in a office job, hell, even flying a plane, teaching children one in a life time things. maybe one day i'll be close to at least one of mydreams.
but the thing i want, above it all, is to share them with someone.

i am petrified to grow up.

you'll never be this young againn.

i just realised today, that i only have 4 terms of school left forever.
i wanted to grow up so much, but now i think about it. it's scary.

i hope i always stay close to my friends.
they are truely unforgettable.
i love them all!

dancing in exactly 44 minutes, i cannot wait.
i love dancing, very much. been waiting for this night for a weeeek.
it's the one thing that i fully forget everything, and dance with everything i have.
it's an extension on my soul. i would be nothing without that. and my boy.

yay for summer, nay for winter.
i do not suit the winter weather, and find myself complaining about it quite frequently.
i wish it was summer, even though it is a kazillion months away. :(
i drink way too much green tea.
and i am i fully qualified first aiderr.

the end.

bob dylan is quite possibly the most amazing lyricist, ever.

my amazing boyfriend bought me two fish today because i had a bad day.
i love that boy, without a doubt he cheers me up whenever i am down.

oh yes..

I wish i understood things properly.
like eg. politics and economics,
i could converse in a deep conversation with Michael adding smart comments and my opinion. but no.

and i hate people who say they hate change.
and negativity and people at the moment.

the end.